03/01/15

Saturday, 03 January 2015 4.07
Dear diary,
No special things happened since yesterday. Today, in the noon my aunt Dina called and invited for lunch tomorrow. Probably she has invited dad too. She wants to help but I don't think she will manage anything. Maybe the things will get worse. I want her plan to have results but I don't think it will. There are three scenarios.
1st SCENARIO
The first scenario is the most possible. He won's show up. He keeps avoiding aunt since 'The Big Fight'. There very few chances to come, especially if he knows that we will be there, too. Moreover he is ashamed. If he goes and aunt's relatives are there what is he going to say? Will he pretend that everything is okay? I don't think so...
2nd SCENARIO
The second scenario is worse and less expected. He will show up and he won't talk a lot. But when my aunt will try to play the 'marriage counselor' he is going to react badly or rudely. He will either pretend that he didn't hear and take it as a joke or he will burst and he will start shouting and belching. If this happens I don't know how I will react but I don't think I will stay there watching such things going on. When I was younger, I used to imagine that my life was a reality and from moment to moment the cameras will go off and my parents will come hug me and explain that nothing of all these unpleasant things that happened to us are true. It was the hope that is still alive in my heart.
3rd SCENARIO
The 3rd scenario is about the hope I was telling you before. So it's kinda impossible. He will come. He will have regretted everything. He will apologize. Mum will forgive him. Chris will forgive him too. And then we will be a family again and none will be able to harm us because will protect each other as we always did. I know I'm a dreamer but I will kill myself if I don't do such optimistic thoughts even if I know that the chances for sth like this to happen is like 1 out of 10.000.000.000.

xxx

02/01/15

Friday, 02 December 2015 1.30

Dear diary, 

I know I'm unforgivable for not writing to you for so long. One day after the last time I wrote to you my computer broke down. Many things have happened since then so I will narrate them to you in three parts. 

part 1: FRIENDS

Well not many things happened in this field. I still hang out with the girls. But now I like Deppie more so we spent more time together. Last week we went to watch The Hobbit together. We had a great time together. I laugh a lot when I hang out with her. The last 2-3 weeks I try to avoid Agelikh and Christine cause none likes them and we try to keep some distance. As for Nasia, she is my teddy bear. We were a bit lost during holidays but last night we went out together and enjoyed ourselves. 

part 2: ROMANCE

Here I've got some things to say. a few weeks ago my brother that a friend of his, Jimmy, liked me. I didn't mind it to much cause I didn't think that anything would happen. A few days later they (Chris and Jimmy) came where my friends and I were and sat with us. I gave him my left hand and told him that it was nice to met him and he replied me that the proper thing was to give him my right hand but it didn't matter cause the left is the one that leads to our hearts. It was one of the best things anyone have told me. We didn't talk since then till Christmas' Eve party that my brother held at our house for his name day. We danced and we drunk shots together. At around 12 we went out for a walk with him, Georgia and Bill and we sat outside the church. While we were sitting we were saying stupidities and at some point he hugged me. *Amazingg feelingg*. Then we get in again. The same night he text me and he gave me his mobile. We were texting almost every day. On Monday a common friend of us was holding a party at her house. He told me that he would be there and I should go, too. So I went. But he didn't show up. He told me that he thought I wouldn't go cause I didn't gave him a definite answer. I didn't have a reason to be agree so I told that it didn't matter me. But kinda the same thing happened yesterday. He told me he would go out yesterday, but he didn't. I know what's going on but I'm not gonna text him again. There's no reason. So this chapter is over.

part 3: FAMILY 

The worst part. Yeap it is worse than the previous one. My parents at the 28th of October had a great fight and my dad hit my mom. Again. It hurts so much so I don't want to talk a lot about it. Yesterday it was my dad's name day and the whole day we were absent as we couldn't pretend that we are fine. We went to drink a coffee in Lamia with a mom's colleague, Zoi. Then we went for lunch in Ypati. There was snow everywhere I took a lot of pics. After that we went again in Lamia to drink a second coffee. When we returned home dad was there so I begged mom to leave and not enter the was because he could start a fight. So we started wandering with the car till he left. It was awful. We were locked out of our house on a day like this. I hope I will never get through sth like this never again. I am a family lover and seeing my family being destroyed sucks. I've nothing else to say.

xxx 

22/09/14

Monday, 22 September 2014 4.50
Dear diary,
I've not written to you for so long cause nothing special or extraordinary happened. Well, on Thursday I saw a really handsome boy at the school canteen. I asked Giannis if he knew him but he didn't so I asked him to find out whatever he could for him. He eventually learned his name: Konstantinos but he didn't know his name on Facebook. On Saturday, Georgia Xr. visited me, as it was my name day, and told me that he liked him and revealed me his Facebook name, so I added him. I knew there was no chance. Georgia liked him. That means she will get him even the world's end come. So I was pretty disappointed. Next morning, when I woke up I saw that he accepted me and he poked me. Oh yes! He poked me. So much happiness. I poked him too and I expected he would text me. He didn't though. He poked me back. I pocked him back after a while and in the same minute he pocked me back again. I didn't know what to do. Chris gave me the courage to text him first. In the 3rd message message he sent me a "<3". OMG! I was dead. Today, at school he was looking at me and smiling. Unfortunately, the bad news didn't want much time to show up. When we finished school I found out that he had a relationship with Georgia. Crack :/ . Sth inside me broke down. I should have expected it. As long as Georgia likes smn, it's done. And somewhere in the backround it's me. Embarrassed cause I tried to do sth with a boy that Georgia wanted. I really feel blue right know but I have to go to my English lesson.
xxx

14/09/14

Sunday, 14 September 2014 10.28
Dear diary,
Sorry for not writing to you for so long. I'll tell you everything that happened since Thursday. On Friday morning I woke up at 7 so as to get ready and go to school. On my way to school I met Nasia, as we had arranged. We arrived school and chatted a bit with the other girls. The bell rang and we gathered. The headmaster was talking to us and at some point she asked who had the highest grades in G'1. I froze. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't raise hand. And after some seconds my classmates started saying my name so eventually I found the courage and raised my hand. It was a pretty akward experience. Then they left us in the yard for four school hours. At 10 the bell rang again and we went in the our classrooms. Nasia and I got the best desk. It's in the center of the class. Two desks behind us its Thanasis' desk  *happiness*.

~Dream~
My Friday evening was pretty full, too. I had a waxing. Then I went to the city center to show Ms Harris a book that I bought and ask her if this was the right one or not. It wasn't. So I went to the bookstore to exchange it. After that I went to the Falara to get signed in the volleyball team with Apostolia and then we went to the square. Chris finished his lesson at the time we got there and told us there was a play on in the park in which a friend of his was playing at 9 so we decided to go. The play was okay but Chris' friend was very beautiful. When the play ended we went home and slept. Yesterday I woke up at 8.30 and went to Lamia with Chris, Nasia and Katerina to buy gifts for Nasia's birthday and Sofia's name day and school supplies. We had pretty much fun.
We returned home, had lunch and I went to bed cause I was on my period and hurt a lot. While I was in bed as I had finished Under the Dome started watching Arrow. Arrow is A-W-E-S-O-M-E! And the protagonist is really hot. After two hours I got up and mum said they wold leave to go to the coffee cause Olympiakos was playing. At 9.30 my bro came back and we studied together in our room cause he had a lesson today and the teacher with who Chris had a lesson made me too to do some excersices for today.

We watch a movie and then slept. Today I woke up to finish the homework and since then nothing.
xxx

11/09/14

Thursday, 11 September 2014 04.37pm
Dear diary,
School started! I don't know if I'm happy or not. At first I saw Tom after 1 month. And believe me he was very handsome today.  Yeah. I was starring at him the whole morning. I also took him some pictures.  Hihihi (^.^)! Moreover I found my bestie again. We have a habit no to talk during summer almost at all. Today we spent so many hours together after a very long time. It was pretty an amazing day. We had a great at school. The whole day Nasia and I were laughing. It was the reunion I told you before. And during the new year ceremony the Mayor had a fight with the priest so the ceremony was quite entertaining too. Then, almost everyone went to IV Quatro. So I went too. At first it was a bit boring, but then the situation improved a bit. We returned home at 2. We did some housework when mum and dad came we had lunch. They were fighting about sth that happened yesterday but I luckily was not present cause I had had an English lesson. Lucky me. When we finished they left for Larisa cause dad has an appointment with a doctor there at 5.30. They are not back yet. Maybe the stopped somewhere and killed each other. Maybe not. Chris left half an hour after them to go to the coffee. Since then I saw an episode Under the dome, slept and uploaded some photos on instagram. That's all.
xxx

09/09/14

Tuesday, 09 September 2014 2.00pm
Dear diary,
I don't write to you every day cause nothing special happens. On Sunday evening I went to help to the coffee cause our National team a football and a basketball match. We lost in both (-.-). When you are meant to be unhappy you are by every point of view. At least, was a bit happy cause one of her favorite cous visited Stulida after two years. His family leaves in Athens but he commutes to London cause he works there as a dentist. He comes in Athens 10 days per month cause he has office both in Athens and London. His wife works as a university teacher. It's not necessary to say that each of his two children own an iPad and study at a private school. Life is so unfair.
 
We returned home at 1+.  The next morning I woke up at 7.30 cause I had an English lesson. But I eventually I woke up for no reason. Miss Vivian missed the bus so we didn't do a lesson. When mum returned home told me than Nasia's uncle is making a new volleyball team and it would be better to go there because is cheaper, because my current coach never comes to the coffee and cause the new coach is my best friends' uncle. So she convinced me. So I had to convinced my friends who I had made start playing volleyball. I convinced all of them except Katerina. Our current coach had told her that he would take her to Lamia for training. Of course, Katerina could not resist the temptation. I wouldn't resist either so I don't blame her. I felt a bit sorry because she my co-player but I will handle it. So for one more time: Life is unfair.

After lunch I studied English. Again for no reason cause today that we went to write our tests mrs. Harris told us that we are going to write mrs. Vivian's test tomorrow evening after lesson. So fuck. I won't go to Agia Marina tomorow with Katerina. I hope she will be able to go today.

I don't know why I complain all the time but I really don't like it. I feel like these miserable teenagers in the movies that all day grumble and make other people unhappy. I hate it but I feel really blue. Also school starts on Thursday and has affected my mood too. Yeap. Life sucks but I don't wanna be sad all the time. It's making me sick. Chris is always happy (except when he is angry) and I am always bored and down im the dumps. It would be better if we were both in a more normal state. I don't know. Maybe there is a reason for everybody to act in a special way. I really don't know. Moreover, the weather is weird. It's sunny now and in five minutes might rain. Weird. Like me. 

07/09/14

Sunday, 07 September 2014
Dear diary,
On Friday I went to Katerina's so as to go jogging in the evening but rain started and we stayed there. After some time that the rain stopped we played volleyball. I returned home at 9. After that you know: dinner and TV. Yesterday I woke up at 8.30 cause I forgot to turn off my alarm clock. I did the mainstream stuff(mobile & TV & Internet). While I was playing with my mobile I discover an app, which was already installed, that could the mobile into a TV controller. At 1 mum returned home and we went for a swim to Raches. Summer isn't over yet. We stayed there till 4+. We ate pita gyro. I had a shower and then finished the first season of Under the dome. Then I went to the living room and you know I watched some TV.

At around 10 flashlights started to show up so I went to sit at the balcony. Rain in the summer is amazing. I could stay all night and watch at the sky. I was a bit chilly but wonderful. There are no words to describe the feeling I had. This melancholy and the beautiful of the cloudy sky and some flashlights here and there in one word: perfection. 

Today, I woke up at 9. Since then, you know. Everything I do every morning. So I've nothing to write.
xxx