03/01/15

Saturday, 03 January 2015 4.07
Dear diary,
No special things happened since yesterday. Today, in the noon my aunt Dina called and invited for lunch tomorrow. Probably she has invited dad too. She wants to help but I don't think she will manage anything. Maybe the things will get worse. I want her plan to have results but I don't think it will. There are three scenarios.
1st SCENARIO
The first scenario is the most possible. He won's show up. He keeps avoiding aunt since 'The Big Fight'. There very few chances to come, especially if he knows that we will be there, too. Moreover he is ashamed. If he goes and aunt's relatives are there what is he going to say? Will he pretend that everything is okay? I don't think so...
2nd SCENARIO
The second scenario is worse and less expected. He will show up and he won't talk a lot. But when my aunt will try to play the 'marriage counselor' he is going to react badly or rudely. He will either pretend that he didn't hear and take it as a joke or he will burst and he will start shouting and belching. If this happens I don't know how I will react but I don't think I will stay there watching such things going on. When I was younger, I used to imagine that my life was a reality and from moment to moment the cameras will go off and my parents will come hug me and explain that nothing of all these unpleasant things that happened to us are true. It was the hope that is still alive in my heart.
3rd SCENARIO
The 3rd scenario is about the hope I was telling you before. So it's kinda impossible. He will come. He will have regretted everything. He will apologize. Mum will forgive him. Chris will forgive him too. And then we will be a family again and none will be able to harm us because will protect each other as we always did. I know I'm a dreamer but I will kill myself if I don't do such optimistic thoughts even if I know that the chances for sth like this to happen is like 1 out of 10.000.000.000.

xxx

02/01/15

Friday, 02 December 2015 1.30

Dear diary, 

I know I'm unforgivable for not writing to you for so long. One day after the last time I wrote to you my computer broke down. Many things have happened since then so I will narrate them to you in three parts. 

part 1: FRIENDS

Well not many things happened in this field. I still hang out with the girls. But now I like Deppie more so we spent more time together. Last week we went to watch The Hobbit together. We had a great time together. I laugh a lot when I hang out with her. The last 2-3 weeks I try to avoid Agelikh and Christine cause none likes them and we try to keep some distance. As for Nasia, she is my teddy bear. We were a bit lost during holidays but last night we went out together and enjoyed ourselves. 

part 2: ROMANCE

Here I've got some things to say. a few weeks ago my brother that a friend of his, Jimmy, liked me. I didn't mind it to much cause I didn't think that anything would happen. A few days later they (Chris and Jimmy) came where my friends and I were and sat with us. I gave him my left hand and told him that it was nice to met him and he replied me that the proper thing was to give him my right hand but it didn't matter cause the left is the one that leads to our hearts. It was one of the best things anyone have told me. We didn't talk since then till Christmas' Eve party that my brother held at our house for his name day. We danced and we drunk shots together. At around 12 we went out for a walk with him, Georgia and Bill and we sat outside the church. While we were sitting we were saying stupidities and at some point he hugged me. *Amazingg feelingg*. Then we get in again. The same night he text me and he gave me his mobile. We were texting almost every day. On Monday a common friend of us was holding a party at her house. He told me that he would be there and I should go, too. So I went. But he didn't show up. He told me that he thought I wouldn't go cause I didn't gave him a definite answer. I didn't have a reason to be agree so I told that it didn't matter me. But kinda the same thing happened yesterday. He told me he would go out yesterday, but he didn't. I know what's going on but I'm not gonna text him again. There's no reason. So this chapter is over.

part 3: FAMILY 

The worst part. Yeap it is worse than the previous one. My parents at the 28th of October had a great fight and my dad hit my mom. Again. It hurts so much so I don't want to talk a lot about it. Yesterday it was my dad's name day and the whole day we were absent as we couldn't pretend that we are fine. We went to drink a coffee in Lamia with a mom's colleague, Zoi. Then we went for lunch in Ypati. There was snow everywhere I took a lot of pics. After that we went again in Lamia to drink a second coffee. When we returned home dad was there so I begged mom to leave and not enter the was because he could start a fight. So we started wandering with the car till he left. It was awful. We were locked out of our house on a day like this. I hope I will never get through sth like this never again. I am a family lover and seeing my family being destroyed sucks. I've nothing else to say.

xxx